Kirsty devouring herself

Goya! I have been in love with his series of black paintings since the beginning of this course, and during my Final Major Project I have been looking at them, hard! I just have such a strong pull towards them! They are so dark and unsettling, I love it! In particular "Saturn devouring one of his sons" I have really had a connection with.

Saturns stance, the wildness of his hair and eyes, the colours used on the flesh, its all so disturbing. This painting made me want to go and find out what it was about, why was Saturn eating his kid??? well... in Greek mythology, Saturn, known as Cronus, the ruling Titan, would insure his safety, ate each of the children as they were born. (He castrated his own father Uranus so you could see why he was worried) Eeep! Look the story up its great! This is so dark and twisted and I love it! So this was the inspiration for Goya... This painting was in the back of my head for a long time during my FMP but just a quite little flutter. So it was ignored for a long time. Until I started looking at what MS actually is. I mean not to me. I obviously know the answer to this but I have been taking such a personal approach to my work I wanted to step back for this and think back to what I was told by the doctors and specialists 5 years ago... Answer: In Multiple Sclerosis, the nerves of the brain and spinal cord are damaged by one's own immune system. Thus, the condition is called an autoimmune disease. Of course it is much more complicated than just this, the damage is irreversable, but this is the basic idea. So in my Mind, it is a sort of Subconscious form of self harm. Then Goya's image came trickling back into my mind but instead of a flutter this time it was thumping crashing noise in my head. So i started this image back in late January, and its finally just coming to a head! here's where I'm at! Been working hard this weekend, and its been worth it i feel! not finished still needs tweeking.